I've been reading this blog for almost a year now... at first I thought the idea of counting blessings was a sweet one. I read a few other blogs that joined in the counting and enjoyed reading their lists. Then just before summer arrived I joined in the journey to a thousand gifts. Little did I know just how much of an impact that small, yet ever growing list would have on my life.
The impact of this list slowly crept in, at first unnoticed. Then I forgot about it... got to busy to take the time to count. I'm sure you know how that is.
But here recently the Almighty keeps whispering in my ear about it. He doesn't nag me about it, it's more like a constant tapping on the shoulder. An encouraging tapping, because He knows the importance of this lesson and apparently wants me to grasp its importance.
I think, maybe, just maybe, I am beginning to understand the importance.
You see a few weeks ago the counting became something pushed to the back burner. One of those I'll-do-it-tomorrow things. And then I wrote this post and realized that I desperately needed to get back in the habit.
But I kept forgetting. Or maybe a part of me didn't want to?
I'm learning that when we live in a constant state of gratitude their is no room for selfishness. And I am a selfish person. One thing that counting my blessings has done is show me just how selfish I really am. It has brought out the child in me. I realize that when things don't the way I want them to I tend to shut Him out.
Because the way my life goes primarily depends on the plans He has for me.
I forget that the one who allows the Lord to direct his steps is one who will be richly blessed.
I forget that His ways are better then mine.
Then I realized that my enemy has been successfully diverting me from this task because he is fully aware of just how dangerous giving thanks can be.
And that just makes me mad. When I start to look at life through His eyes I begin to see my flesh for what it really is.
It breaks my heart... because once again I have strayed from His arms.
But I do only what I can do... and that is to do the next right thing. Which is to count....
Thanksgiving.... because we must learn to give thanks.
Family.... because they are who I have for the rest of my life
Friends.... because without them I think I would be lost
The holiday season.... because it reminds of the 2 most important things: gratitude and the birth of our Savior
Christmas... because of all the decorating
and all the glitter
and its the season giving
and Christmas music
and because without the birth of my Savior I would
be forever lost